A strange nightmare last night

This one is odd...

I was dreaming I was lying in bed, in my room, and I'm trying to get up. Only I found that there are hundreds of bugs (spiders, giant ants, and the lot) on the ceiling, right by where the door is. They fill up this neat square around the top frame of the door and on the ceiling. I couldn't move (since I'm scared of bugs), and hope to get the courage to jsut rush out.

And then, I look down. And there are bugs everywhere, all in these neat square formation. were were all moving but the square they form stays there. I couldn't even get down!

And then I look up again, right on top of my bed was another bug square. I decided staying in bed isn't actually safe anymore, and jumped down, avoided all the bug squares, pull the door open and rush outside.

Only to find that outside, there are bug squares everywhere too.

*sigh*. I for one welcome our new bug square overlord...

Anyway, I still don't know what the dream means. I'll try to figure it out later. :P

Trying to pull myself back together...

It hasn't been easy, but I'll damn well try.

So far I've made a few goals that I would like to achive by end of this week. It doesn't look TOO difficult yet.

I might just take the rest of the day easy and try to make some sense of the Kalman filter. I have to do it sometime anyway...

Holiday...?

Okay, one more sleep to go and I'll be heading to Pete's bach. I'm kinda looking forward to it. Well, I would LOVE a holiday away with Pete. But knowing how friggin' stressed out I am at the moment, I'm just not too sure whether it'd be a holiday at all.

I don't really know... I mean, I know it's silly to be that stressed out because of something that's not really my fault (I would've been close to finishing on feature extraction by now has it not been my supervisor keep on pressing me on the segmentation part. *sigh*) but I do feel somewhat like a failure. It's silly, I know.

I'm tempted to buy one of those wrist guard thingy just so I'll stop looking at my wrist really. It's kinda getting worst. It's getting kinda hard to stay sane sometimes, I just don't understand why I can't really do as well as I think I should be. Pressure is the last thing I need at the moment, yet I've been getting pressure aplenty.

I'll just have to push on I guess. Try my best to do as much as I can today, and try to actually have a break over the long weekend. *sigh*.

I'll survive. I'll have to. *sigh*

Easter Monday Madness

I have to be really bored to do this (or just stalling coz I can't really work... :P)

Not only does this rather pointless exercise gives me (and hopefully you) some laughs, it also gives you a peek of my music collection that is my current playlist...

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
Dry? - Janne da Arc (Oh dear... this is off to a great start...)

Will I have a happy life?
Something - The Beatles

What do people really think of me?
Make it all okay - REM

Do people secretly lust after me?
Hello - Paul Anka (It's the Paul Anka swing version... bloody brilliant btw)

How can I make myself happy?
"Rubbish" - Eason Chan

What should I do with my life?
Hello - John Butler Trio

Will I ever have children?
Human - Pretenders

What is some good advice for me?
Who will save your soul - Jewel

What do I think my current theme song is?
Your Song - From the Moulin Rouge soundtrack

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Au Revoir - Malice Mizer (o_O)

What song will play at my funeral?
Peachers & Cream - John Butler Trio (That's a slightly freaky song to play for funeral...)

What type of men/women do you like?
A Message - Coldplay

What is my day going to be like?
Love Song - Luna Sea (I love them... *sigh*... anyway)

Why am I here?
Booker T - Twinset (Yes, a Jazz piece with no words explain perfectly...)

What will people remember me for?
What you want - John Butler Trio

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Case - Dimmer (I will if I have my speakers here o_O)

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
Auf Achse - Franz Ferdinand.

What will this year be all about?
Act Naturally - The Beatles


... Yup. that was pointless. Ah well. :P

How I stop worrying and start loving bureaucracy

The amount of paper work has made me realise that bureacracy is the system's way to make sure we're not over working ourselves. Think about it: each time you need someting to be done, you'll have to wait for about 3 days, at least, to make sure the paper works are all done and everything's sorted, sent, and waited to be signed by various people. Sometimes, before that piece of paper is signed by about 5 different people, there really isn't much you can do, but sit and wait. It's the system's way to make sure we do have time that we're not over-worked, and think about other philosophical issues such as "why mst we fill in the forms" or "this shouldn't be nearly as complicated".

Of course, it could also be the other way, it's just there to create more stress, because no matter how early you want to start, you'll always be cutting close to the deadline.

Remember: if you die, they don't have to worry about paying you anymore.

Adventure of getting a travel quote

Applying for funding is an absolute pain in the butt. (More about that in my Lucifer's Cheesecake blog today. I'll update that later). Not only do I have to jump through hoops to defend my rights to have some funding to go to a conference, I also have to get some quotes for the travel, from the uni's preferred supplier.

Except I can't find just exactly WHO this "preferred supplier" is.

After bugging a friend who've applied for the fund before, I found out who they are, except no one knew the email address to send to to bug them. Their website didn't quite help either. So I've decided to call them up. (Which is quite something, considering I have an irrational fear towards using the phone.)

So I called them, and was on hold. (surprise)

After about 3 apology voice messages, I got to a human, who told me I just have to email a consultant. And finally got hold of a consultant's email address. I sent an email to them asking for a quote, and said that I need it by the end of the week, if possible.

Half an hour later, I got a reply. Here's the reply. Word for word:

Hello Lisa
Thank you for your email.
we will reply soonest possible

Thanks
name deleted

I'm giving up. *sigh*

Absolutely wasted

I don't know how my brother does it. 3 days with just 5 hrs sleep a day and I'm already wasted. He does it 5 days a week... mind you as he pointed out I was no better when I was in 4th year.

I'm not too sure how I'm going to survive this week really. I've got movie tonight, a birthday for tomorrow, flat warming tomorrow night, I'm supposed to go through my old harddisc, read the text book (I have to return it on monday), and other various work related things to be done this weekend.

What did I do this morning? I surfed the web. Stupid.

Well, it's not so much that it's stupid of me to surf the web I guess. I'm extremely tired, I can't really read about Kalman's Filter right now. But I kinda have to. I think. It's stupid anyway, I'm supposed to have finish the whole segmentation stuff. But then again I suppose if I can do some sort of state modelling it'll help.

Grrr. That probably mean I'd have to redo the whole damned thing, not to mention start a completely different branch of literature review of Hidden Markov Chain and Kalman Filter.

And people wonder why I'm depressed. o_O

Here to redefine "blowing it out of proportion...

Grrr...

This morning dad had a go at me for drinking Earl Grey and he was hoping we can stop buying Earl Grey... It's not liek we don't have other tea you know... I was like "err... you know i do liek my earl Grey every now and then. Why can't we have both of them at home?" He went on saying that I don't know what I'm talking about and refuse to talk about it. WTF? Apparently mum bought some more after we finished the last batch and dad didn't like that... how expensive is tea for crying out loud? And it's not like we buy A LOT of it... *sigh*

Honestly. If someone can tell me the significant of NOT drinking Earl Grey (besides the fact that it smells like soap according to some) let me know. o_O

For now, I'm just gonna kinda sulk and be annoyed at the world. o_O

I really do need to move out sometimes soon...

Swing like teen spirit

Gosh... I thought I like Tori Amos' version of Smells like teen spirit... I was channel surfing, and hear Paul Anka's version of Smells like Teen Spirit in swing! After the intially "WTF?!" reaction, I actually thought it's quite cool, especially the fact that there is absolutely no point whatsoever in doing a swing cover of the song. It's a lot better than the disco verison I heard before though, That I can tell you.

Apparently (this is all thank to wiki, as usual) he has a whoel album of swing version of rock songs, include things from Bon Jovi, Michael Jackson (yeah I know... ) and REM even! Everybody Hurts... in swing!! Not to mention he also have a swing cover of Wonderwall. (I'ms till trying to figure out how that could work...) I'm actually tempted to get that album. If not just to annoy Toby coz I got music even stranger than his.. (well... ok I lie. He got Dokaka... and nothing is QUITE as strange as Dokaka).

Now I just need to find a cheap version of it. :P Looks like I'll have to make a trip to Warehouse sometimes. :P